Growing up and Stepping out...

There is an issue that has always been controversial, yet it has been defined and explained. Growing up! we all know girls grow up faser than guys and then the boys catch up and then etc's...but reaching maturity is not growing up per se. When do you know that you are growing up, of course despite the fact that hormones are dictating your every cell how to...what if you always had that mature sense in you...when do you say, that you grew up enough...

Growing up, I feel that I did, way before all my friends, all my brothers and sisters...way before myself as a matter of fact...I really do not know. I have always been ahead of time, I know my super ego and control my ego..of course growing up does not mean the extinction of cartoon watching, playing and occasionally doing your daily stupid thing/saying your stupid thing...But there are times that a dose of mature and grown up act has to take the best of it...

Sometimes you see and hear and feel things. but you do not know whether they shoud be said or not. you feel that it is the grown up thing to do...the mature thing, but are we ready to hear these reality checks? I still hesitate on what my feelings towards certain things should be communicatd or not...

Maybe sometimes we just think we are there when we are not....maybe many things should never be said or should be left unsaid...tricy thoughts these are.

One advantage of learning from mistakes also known as gorwing up, is that we are no longer afraid of stepping out of our shell, we take risks, where and when we can...I sense that I am growing with my relationship, but I am growing all alone. I let myself be fooled but what seems to have an age, can thoughts be ranked, can loved evolve? Maybe things I should have not gotten myself into...

I think I should....so what am I? My mouth learnt to open itself and do the mature thing, now it is hard to close it....I wish we could go back in time and repair broken wishes, dreams and lifes...I truly do wish I did not have to grow up and stop believing in wishes...