Malice in Blunderland

Hey Theeeeere,

Back like I never left...

So Life is life, and it takes over at times....
My inspiration has been on its up and downs recently...comes and goes. Hence Life taking over at times.

Today I come bearing fantasies, fantasies left on the pillow case. DREAMS...yes dreams...for many many years I could barely remember my dreams, for a long time I used to wake up and not remember any of them...

Just to inform you all, we all dream, every time, we just do not remember them but we do dream. So mine were like dark spaces. It was great I mean really great. So I would dream of anything and not suffer through any type of emotions.

Moving on, I just wanted to remind many that might be going through ups and downs, that it is not forever (the downs -   I know we all wish the ups did but eh LIFE and then they do not...sorry!).

Dreams are pretty scary at times and they are pretty sweet as well...many scientists have argued that they are a door to the unconscious and even could be used as premonitions...They could be telling you what is going on with you, and your emotional status, so listen to them and take the time to solve whatever is going on in the peanut!

So I leave you with a short message. Your body needs you and it needs you well, whatever it is that Life is throwing at you, catch it, let it hurt you let it heal you. It is the only way to know how strong you are, and what you are ready for to reach where you are to reach.

Let things run their way and while you do that take the time and see what and who is sticking around...the when's and where's do not really matter at this point.

Peaces and Loves Always

Getting to know the unknown and the known

Hey there, fellow humans!

Recently I have been realising how much we have all grown, from trying to dance like Michael Jackson, to judging Chris Brown.
From waiting to be fed to actually going after the food. Things have evolved and things have changed, friends have become strangers and so you have learnt from all experiences.

All these have shown us one simple thing, the past is the best teacher. We tend to fear what we do not know, but I believe that even the known comes to scare us the most...but whether we understood it, or understand it is another story. But the fears, the scepticism, the hesitation they are always there, some are smaller than other others are bigger but still manage to let us  try the once impossible...Bad experiences have broken and made us, it is the way of the jungle and will always be.

I have been stuck in a dilemma, where I am faced with the reminders of a known devil and also a unknown devil....But which one is better? I have always been pro adventures, but which one will come to be an adventure? and which one will be nothing but a reminder that I have once again wasted time, and energy on? I fear that if I hold hands with the known, I will be at one point in the same hell pit I was in and it might be even harder to get out, and aware that I walking with the devil - I call it recipe for mental suicide surely!!!

And if I dance with the unknown, I will not know whether this is truly a devil or a little demon. - I know I know, either way hell pit right? I am a bit devilish today!! - I will fear that I am embarking on a death as well, that might be a different and yet worse hell pit than the first.

But how bad is it to get burned with the candle twice, or get burned with the candle once and then with the stove...seems to be that you rather give the stove a chance, because the candle has laughed at you once, now twice??? *do not think sooooo*

Conclusion: We fear just about everything right? But there is that human trait, that none can escape, and it is called curiosity, but in my case it is either one or the other, no two way stations....All or nothing!

So I decided that there is no point in going to the past, que sera, sera, right? NO! Not as easy is it ever?
Fear has long led us to not be able to take control, and putting us in this terrible spot between rights, wrongs and tough decisions. And once you have that constantly in your mind you are unable to move forward.

It might be a mid life crisis or just lack of patience or whatever may come to your mind, things will always be okay, they just do. What one needs to do, is risk it. You want an end to your dilemma, then try it, break a leg, or even your neck, and learn. Know the unknown as you never know what devils heal and what devils kill, appearances are so deceiving...

As a woman we are told to trust instincts, but are not our instincts figments of imagination, bad experiences but most of all, fears? Fears that have metamorphosed into psychic powers to let us know that maybe this time you should realllyy listen to the little voice you insist on ignoring?!! (guys you have that too)

 
If you never try the pizza you will never know how cheesy it is, now will you? Conquering is risking and ensuring that you are no longer afraid....easier said than done! But how far are we ready to go to conquer?
Solution: processing...*code for help*


More peaces and more loves

Trials and Tribulations

Topics of the day is a very interesting one and we all go through it sometimes or most of the times...

We have all been through so many situations that have put us in the worst conditions, we have fallen and lost all confidence, dignity and pride...The worst moments of course for someone who is not fighting a daily struggle!!

But what makes a person you once had so much in common with hurt you and then hate you for hurting you, sincerely, as a psychologist I have tried and tried to understand how that even comes to be. But then the only thing that comes to mind is how low that person must be, or how bad of a coward, mentally unstable that person must be...to hurt you, diminish you, blame it on you and when you become the bigger person you are given knives all over the place. How is that even making sense in any of the ways!!

I have given up trying to understand as it only drains and pains me more than ever, I will pity that person as it is the only thing one can do is such situations...pity, that person finds no sleep at night, as they know how much they have hurt, and you know that person is not happy like you know they could have been. Once you hurt a person that has given you everything and nothing, and been there for you through thick and thin, you are not able to live by idle. 

May be a wishful thinking but it is nothing but reality, noone goes far living off the pain of others, that is a fact, but do we want to wish that on someone you have once cared and given your life for?? Not sure we do...

Though as sad as it may be letting go is only the best of the best in such situations, and being strong and watching their life go where you fear the most is the only thing you can do. Their happiness is at stake and they have destroyed more than they ever wished to destroy.

Advice of the day: Always think before you hurt who loves you the most, always make sure you keep it civil and peace, and always tell the truth it may hurt but you will always be remembered as the best in someone's life. You cannot make miracles but you surely can be a miracle...

Peace and Love

Writer's Block or just Life Blocking

Dear readers,

My blog has been deserted for quite a while, funny thing is I always thought of writing but never had an idea of what would get this thing jumping!

I am not sure if it was life happening a bit too fast for me, or just a writer's block. But I believe it was definitely life happening extremely fast.

Since my endeavour to take up on yet another country, things have been going up and down...mostly down that up...but I am fine...Let life not try and prove me that I am not...Trials and tribulations have been enough for a half a year right?!

But thanks to friends who read my Blog and showered me with compliments, it is good to know we have some readers still out there...

Thank you Re'em and Sarah for making me come back...

So I am back and ready for yet another end of year and beginning of yet another....Argh.

Peace and Love

Adventure Time??

Hey there,

So I have been lost, notice my blog has only like 3 followers....I am sure I do not only have three friends inhere? Hey you do the right thing and read...it is good for your soul.

Well coming back to my ended dilemma, here I am in South Africa. Starting all over again, not hoping for sparkling waters nor wines. I wake up each day, hoping that I will get through the day with a good impression....Another internship...

I think no more of whether it was wise to leave a secure job to search for new endeavours...All my parents, uncles and aunties, called it a calculated risk. "you are still young"'s were the plate of the day...I no longer feel as young as I used to though.

Looking back at my life I miss the days were you could just shit and they would clean you up...sorry for the word.
I miss the days when I had exams, the most exciting days of my life...I miss the days when along with friends we counted cents to get a plate of chips, a bottle or anything as a matter of fact, I miss those days.


I was not born to stagnate...to stay put in one place....I feel tired and fatigued but it is a need to be lived...I constantly need out of the trouble times, the same old things...I like to re-adapt.

I like to feel indifferent...i feel indifferen to this life. Not scared of anything...perhaps the worst feeling...I am just alive but not living..

Today ends to welcome tomorrow beginnings


Be back with more, more often



Peaces and loves

Get funky or die slowdancing...

I know ...No need to scream...You missed me....I know.

Well, I am here, better and newer than ever, I am a 2012 person, survived it...and yes we shall survive the cyclone threats to, as long as they remain threats...

Good people, who should be reading this, dilemmas dilemmas are the main course du jour! Anyway I let those for another time. Life has ways of giving you opportunities with no tags, so you never know if you should pass or take them, so I took it, and looks like an opportunity with a disappointment face hidden behind...

Only the future can save us....tererereeen

Back to earth, I was giving this opportunity but now it is just not looking as good as what I have now, but if you do not eat a piece of the cake then you will never know what it tasted like....I dearest loves cakes. The  trick with this opportunity is that it is making me go 10 steps back. Am I really ready? Argh, these things should be foreseen....and come with tags....


I am back to the world...thank you gmail for bringing it back.