Recently I have been realising how much we have all grown, from trying to dance like Michael Jackson, to judging Chris Brown.From waiting to be fed to actually going after the food. Things have evolved and things have changed, friends have become strangers and so you have learnt from all experiences.
All these have shown us one simple thing, the past is the best teacher. We tend to fear what we do not know, but I believe that even the known comes to scare us the most...but whether we understood it, or understand it is another story. But the fears, the scepticism, the hesitation they are always there, some are smaller than other others are bigger but still manage to let us try the once impossible...Bad experiences have broken and made us, it is the way of the jungle and will always be.
I have been stuck in a dilemma, where I am faced with the reminders of a known devil and also a unknown devil....But which one is better? I have always been pro adventures, but which one will come to be an adventure? and which one will be nothing but a reminder that I have once again wasted time, and energy on? I fear that if I hold hands with the known, I will be at one point in the same hell pit I was in and it might be even harder to get out, and aware that I walking with the devil - I call it recipe for mental suicide surely!!!

And if I dance with the unknown, I will not know whether this is truly a devil or a little demon. - I know I know, either way hell pit right? I am a bit devilish today!! - I will fear that I am embarking on a death as well, that might be a different and yet worse hell pit than the first.
But how bad is it to get burned with the candle twice, or get burned with the candle once and then with the stove...seems to be that you rather give the stove a chance, because the candle has laughed at you once, now twice??? *do not think sooooo*
Conclusion: We fear just about everything right? But there is that human trait, that none can escape, and it is called curiosity, but in my case it is either one or the other, no two way stations....All or nothing!
So I decided that there is no point in going to the past, que sera, sera, right? NO! Not as easy is it ever?
Fear has long led us to not be able to take control, and putting us in this terrible spot between rights, wrongs and tough decisions. And once you have that constantly in your mind you are unable to move forward.
It might be a mid life crisis or just lack of patience or whatever may come to your mind, things will always be okay, they just do. What one needs to do, is risk it. You want an end to your dilemma, then try it, break a leg, or even your neck, and learn. Know the unknown as you never know what devils heal and what devils kill, appearances are so deceiving...

As a woman we are told to trust instincts, but are not our instincts figments of imagination, bad experiences but most of all, fears? Fears that have metamorphosed into psychic powers to let us know that maybe this time you should realllyy listen to the little voice you insist on ignoring?!! (guys you have that too)
If you never try the pizza you will never know how cheesy it is, now will you? Conquering is risking and ensuring that you are no longer afraid....easier said than done! But how far are we ready to go to conquer?
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Wow! Amazing thoughts mami!
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